Dance Into Destiny
Also by Sherri L. Lewis
My Soul Cries Out
DANCE INTO DESTINY
Sherri L. Lewis
www.urbanchristianonline.net
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Table of Contents
Also by Sherri L. Lewis
Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter Forty
Chapter Forty-One
Chapter Forty-Two
Chapter Forty-Three
Chapter Forty-Four
Chapter Forty-Five
Epilogue
Reader’s Group Guide
Copyright Page
Dedication
For Yvette.
I thank God for such a wonderful friend to pursue pur-
pose and destiny with.
Thanks for chasing the purple sky with me . . .
Acknowledgments
As always, first and foremost, thanks to my God. You’re showing Yourself more faithful and perfect in my life every day. I have no human words to express my love . . .
Seems like I just wrote acknowledgments for My Soul Cries Out. In fact, as I’m writing this, it’s due to release in about two weeks. I can’t wait to hold a real book in my hands for the first time! If anyone sees me in Wal-Mart pushing a cart of groceries with my book in my hand, crying my eyes out, just know that I’m overwhelmed by this part of my dreams finally coming true.
To my bestest support and big sister, Joyce. I can’t thank you enough for how much you believe in me and promote my work. Thanks for all your help and support with Midnight Clear, for all the emails you send out and for all the people you tell about my work. I can’t wait until your first children’s book comes out so I can return the love.
To Mommy, for agreeing to be my personal assistant for free. Thanks for all you do to keep me from going insane. To Daddy, for your continual support and encouragement. Hopefully I’ll have a new manuscript for you to read soon. To Kelli, for creative inspiration. And to Jordan, for being the most beautiful niece in the world. I love you so much and can’t wait to see who you’re going to be in God.
To my best friend, Kathy—dude, thanks that I ALWAYS know that you’re there . . .
To Allen, for always having a laugh or a song when I need one.
To Apostle Peterson and Pastor Viv—thanks for your support and endless intercession and for pushing me towards destiny.
To my beautiful, anointed sisters in Women of Destiny Bible Study (did we ever decide on a name for ourselves?). Words cannot express my gratitude for you guys. I am so honored that you come sit in my living room every week, listen to me teach (and actually take notes and look interested) and allow me to pray for you and speak into your lives. Thanks for your trust and for letting me be who God has called me to be. You are the beginning of the fulfillment of prophetic words spoken over my life for many years. Thanks for allowing me to do destiny! It’s the most beautiful thing to watch each of you grow in God. I can’t wait to see what you will become as we continue our passionate pursuit of His presence, purpose and destiny. I love you all sooooo much!
To my mentor and Christian fiction shero, Victoria Christopher Murray. Your support is overwhelming. Thanks for the standard of excellence you set as a writer. You challenge me to continually perfect my craft. You know I’m trying to be like you when I grow up!
To Tia—my writing partner. Thanks for answering ALL my questions ALL the time and for your calm replies during ALL my freak-out moments. You notice how God keeps you right around the corner from me? He knows . . .
To my author friends—thanks for your friendship, encouragement, guidance and support; Kendra Norman Bellamy—for everything!!!! Marilynn Griffith—my bunkie (don’t worry—your secret is safe with me); S. James Guitard—your brilliance at this thing amazes me; your willingness to share blesses me; Stacy Hawkins Adams—thanks for the endorsement and promotion—it means a lot coming from you; Jihad—thanks for ALL the advice—you got this thing down to a science; Claudia Mair-Burney—all I’m saying is can I get a bootleg copy of the second book?! Monique Miller—girl, let’s just continue to figure this thing out together. Toni Lee—thanks for your support and best wishes on your debut novel also! And to the American Christian Fiction Writers—thanks for all you’ve taught me about this writing world.
To my aspiring author friends—it’s only a matter of time. Rhonda Nain—thanks for brightening my days with your emails; Monica McCullough—this one’s for you; Dee Stewart—any day now, I feel it! Tyora Moody (also the BESTEST web designer ever—thanks for the perfect website); Michelle Sutton (thanks for all the reviews and your overwhelming support—can’t wait to return the favor); Shawneda Marks—girl, you amaze me with the extent you’re willing to go to perfect your craft. God will reward that! And the women of the Atlanta Black Christian Fiction Writers—okay, now who’s next?
To my publicists at PowerFlow Media! Wow! Thanks for all that you do. We’ve just started and I’m already in places I never imagined and would have never gotten on my own. I pray God’s blessings upon you!!
To Lisa and April at Papered Wonders—thanks for making my promotional materials so beautiful. I pray God’s continued blessings on your business.
To my Urban Christian family—best wishes to all my fellow writers as we embark on this journey together. Thanks to all the staff that supports us as we do what we do.
And by faith, I’m gonna speak those things! Thanks to all the reviewers and readers who made My Soul Cries Out such a great success. Hope you like this one, too!
Chapter One
“Quite honestly, Ms. Banks, if you’re not able to bring your course grades up to a B average by the end of the semester, I’m afraid you’re going to have to withdraw from the Master’s program.”
Keeva Banks stared at her counselor, watching her cheap, red lipstick bleed into the fine wrinkle lines around her lips. It was almost as if she were mesmerized by the words coming out of her mouth.
She wasn’t.
She knew this was coming. Had been expecting it. Even still, hearing it out loud . . .
Keeva grabbed a lock of hair and twisted it around her finger.
Ms. Parker pulled a green file folder from her desk with Keeva’s name printed on the front and began flipping through the papers in it. “I’ve received progress reports from each of your professors and I have to tell you, things don’t look good.” In a droning monotone voice,
Ms. Parker delineated Keeva’s impending failure.
Keeva felt her heart beat faster and her chest got tight. She tried to inconspicuously take a few deep breaths. Her therapist had taught her to practice relaxation techniques when she got emotionally overwhelmed. Keeva tuned out Ms. Parker’s voice and fastened her eyes on her clothes. She had to focus on something—anything—to make it through this meeting without falling apart.
Ms. Parker’s blouse was made of some cheapy, chintzy fabric with wide, horizontal brown and beige stripes. How could she have thought it matched the completely different shade of brown of her shapeless skirt? And didn’t she know someone with her figure, or lack thereof, should never wear horizontal stripes? Not to mention that her skin was too sallow to wear brown anyway. Keeva tried to imagine her in a fitted pantsuit in maybe a nice peach color with makeup that actually matched her skin color. She shook her head. Even with a makeover, Ms. Parker was one of those women who just couldn’t look much better.
Keeva glanced down at her own Donna Karan pantsuit. The rich, burgundy color accented her cocoa brown skin perfectly and the suit seemed cut to fit her petite, curvy figure. She had dressed carefully that morning, knowing she’d need to look good in light of the news she was about to receive.
She made her eyes go back to Ms. Parker’s face, not wanting to appear rude.
“From what I understand, so far this semester you’ve made, at best, C’s on your exams and you still haven’t completed the project for your Research Methods class.”
Ms. Parker paused as if waiting for Keeva to speak.
No way could she answer without her voice shaking. Or worse still, her bursting into tears. She nodded slowly, hoping that would be a sufficient response.
Ms. Parker’s closet of an office seemed to be shrinking. And did they have the heat turned up in this part of the building? Keeva pressed her hand down on her knee to stop her leg from bouncing. She rubbed her sweaty palms on her pantsuit.
“I have to ask, Ms. Banks, do you really want this degree?”
What difference does it make what I want? Keeva sat up straight and pasted on a camera-pleasing smile. “Of course I want this degree. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.” She hoped she sounded more convincing than she felt.
For the first time, and only for a minute, she thought about it. Did she want a master’s in professional counseling?
How could she help anyone when she didn’t have the answers? Keeva imagined herself counseling people, passing them tissue when they cried, patting their arms and giving them understanding looks in that annoying, empathetic way; bandaging them up to send them back into life to be bruised all over again. What was the point? Would she ever really change anyone’s life?
Ms. Parker stood, came around to the front of her desk and leaned against it.
Keeva watched her hips spread out wide across the wooden edge. She sat back a little. Oh dear. Here comes the heart to heart.
“Ms. Banks, is there something going on that you need to talk about? A problem affecting your academic performance?”
Keeva mustered her last bit of emotional stability to paste on another smile. “No, Ms. Parker. Everything’s fine. Thank you for your concern, though.”
And that was the worst part about it. There was nothing she could blame this on. She was healthy, all her needs were met; she had supportive parents, plenty of friends and a wonderful boyfriend.
Her life was . . . perfect.
All she had to do was get this stupid degree, start her career, get married, have 2.5 children, buy a Volvo and a home in an exclusive neighborhood and live out the rest of her years in Suburban Utopia.
What more could she ask for?
She reached down to pick up her Coach briefcase and stood. She had to get out of the office before she erupted. “I really appreciate you taking the time to speak with me.”
That much was true. The last graduate program she flunked out of just sent a “warning” letter in the mail. It pretty much said get it together or else. Else had landed her here at Georgia State University.
Keeva flipped her shoulder-length hair and smoothed out her suit. “I assure you I’ll do everything I can to pull it together. Things will be better by the end of the semester.”
At least I hope.
Midtown Atlanta was a blur as Keeva drove to her apartment building. She couldn’t wait to get to the haven she had created for herself. She loved her one-bedroom loft. The airy openness of it gave her room to breathe. The large floor-to-ceiling windows let in abundant sunlight that kept her numerous plants flourishing. The designer yellow paint gave the room a happy feeling and was further brightened by the red, leather couch and large modern art pieces on the exposed brick walls. Her place had an interior design magazine, art-deco feel to it.
Keeva winced as she imagined losing her apartment. She’d been there since her senior year at Spelman College. She and her boyfriend, Mark, then a senior at Morehouse, had picked it out together for her. If she flunked out again, her parents would withdraw their financial support and her penthouse loft, luxury car, and generous allowance would all be gone. There was no way her dad would call in another favor to get her into another graduate program.
Keeva dropped her briefcase off at the dining room table, ignoring the books begging to be read. She had to study, but needed to get rid of the heaviness that had been riding her since she stepped into Ms. Parker’s office.
Keeva went to her bedroom and exchanged her pantsuit for some comfortable leggings and a T-shirt, and walked barefoot back into the living room. She pushed the furniture towards the kitchen, careful not to scratch her hardwood floors. They had been a must when she was looking for an apartment. Even though she had given up hope of a professional dancing career, she still loved to dance.
She flicked on the stereo and pushed the “skip disc” button until she got to her African drumming CD. The pulsing tribal rhythms connected with something deep within her.
Keeva inhaled slowly, breathing the music into her body. She began to sway back and forth until the music got into her feet, her body, and her soul. She moved around the room, slowly at first. Her movements grew bigger and stronger as she allowed herself to become enraptured in the music. As she leaped and twirled, the tension streamed out of every pore of her body. She danced herself into a frenzy until she reached a climatic point of release, and then lay in the middle of the floor.
She missed dancing.
Her mother enrolled her in her first dance class at the age of six so she could develop grace and good posture. Her father took her to see the Alvin Ailey dance troupe when she was ten. After that, all she dreamed of was being a professional dancer. She planned to audition for the troupe when she was seventeen, but her mother refused to let her. Neither of her parents thought a dance career was appropriate for Keeva. They thought she needed a professional career to support herself, and that she could dance in her spare time, as a hobby. After they canceled her audition, dancing became bittersweet for Keeva and she quit taking classes.
Keeva jumped when the phone rang. She stretched back out and stared at the ceiling. The hardwood floor felt cold against her hot, sweaty skin.
The answering machine beeped. “Keeva, this is Shara Anderson from your foundations class. I know you’re probably bogged down with studying for your other classes, but we need to get this project started soon. Please give me a call when you get a chance so we can set up a time to meet.”
Keeva rolled her eyes. In the midst of her midterm exams, her stupid professor assigned a research project. He randomly grouped the class into teams of two and she ended up with Shara. Why was she calling her now? The project wasn’t due until the end of the semester.
Keeva didn’t know Shara too well. The most notable thing about her was how plain Jane she was. Her hair was always pulled back in a ponytail and she wore no earrings, no makeup, no nothing. She had a pretty face and would probably be nice looking if she fixed herself up a little. If she didn’t wear
jeans everyday, Keeva would think she was one of those fanatical religious people who thought it was a sin to wear pants or look good. Like God would send someone to hell over a tube of lipstick and a pair of earrings. Shara definitely wasn’t the kind of person Keeva associated with and she wasn’t looking forward to the project.
She looked over at the clock. Mark would be dropping by in less than an hour to check on her. Keeva pulled the furniture back into place, then grabbed a quick shower. As she put on her makeup, she had to laugh at her new hair color. By some strange reasoning, probably a television commercial she had seen, she thought all she needed to fix her life was to spice up her hair color. She pulled her thick, brown hair, now with auburn highlights, up on top of her head and fastened it with a tortoise-shell clip. Mark liked her hair up.
As she poured a generous glass of wine, the buzzer rang, indicating that Mark was downstairs. A few minutes later, she heard him fumbling with his keys and went to open the door.
He pulled her into his arms. “Hey, how’s my Princess?”
Somehow Mark had adopted her father’s nickname for her. It was really a private joke between her and her dad. When she was growing up, he always thought Keeva’s mother was too hard on her and wanted her to be perfect, like a little princess. He thought she should get to enjoy herself more and not worry about what fork to use or how to enunciate perfect English.
Keeva inhaled the strong, masculine scent of Mark’s cologne and snuggled into his chest. “Fine, now. Do you want to come in or are we going to stand in the doorway all night?”
He kissed her on the nose. “You look beautiful as always. I love your hair like that.”